忘记

收拾房间 找到了两年前写下的作文
像个傻子一样读着读着哭得一塌糊涂
用了真实的题材 真的是不一样呢

婆婆忘了我 大概也有五年了吧
感觉不久后就会失去你了呢
你也累了吧 接近95了 现在只记得爸和姑姑们了
对不起 不是个好孙子呢

我还在小学的时候 我们一起去了双峰塔 一起游了吉隆坡
我每次拿着绒质小狗去逗你 你都会咯咯咯的笑
我还记得爸那时买了个橙色的塑胶玩具回来 我在你面前坐着玩儿就是一整天
你以前叫我的口气我还记得 还记得你每次在我们回吉隆坡的时候会悄悄地塞些钱给我 让我买些糖果吃
我们还一起上了升旗山呢

所有的照片 都因为那时电脑坏了 都找不回了

后来红包都得姑姑代给了 你也再也叫不出我的名字
咱家养了真的小狗了 你还是一样咯咯咯的笑
不过你再也没能泡壶好咖啡了 好后悔 怎么那么晚才学会喝咖啡呢

每次回去看你的刺痛 原来是眼泪的利刃啊

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